Friday, October 24, 2008
I WANNA RUNAWAY
its the second post for today yah i noe..dis will be damn long post actually,so if u are not ineterested den dun read okeyzzz..hehe i tell u earlier coz pipol will say i'm too bloggie like alot of thing to say.First of all i'm late again for sch..makin lemak sak aku makin menjadi jadi i dun noe i keep on coming late can someone tell me why i'm like dis?Sch was totally dry i'm not in a mood for the whole class untill 11 plus my class was released and i head to simei to meet my sayang as promised i have to teman dier to do something.And guess wat i have to wait for 45 minutes until he reach simei mrt from his sch,i'm totally piss off coz aku macam nak pengsan i did not have anything to fill my stomach and i have to stand from clementi to simei and again wait for him for 45 minutes.i feel my body weak and bibir kering giler.dier punye sori and sori tau pon.den we head to bradell and do his stuff.after all settled we chill at dino's area coz if we were to get the train its gonna be fully packed.Dino is too frenly we talk macam dah lame kenal..chacha remember him..hahax i noe u noe larh...and i reach home at 8.30.mama nag's at me she asked me where i go padahal dah aku sms tadi bilang aku teman sayang aku.den i even tell her aku nak off hp coz batt dah low.i did not charged yesterday and tak sadar coz i sleep in tears.ntah biler tertdo.after washing up,i went to the kitchen coz i'm damn hungry and i found that the rice tinggal sikit jek,and she dun bother askin aku dah makan ke belom.dari pagi aku tk mkn tadi pon minum green tea and waffle jek tu pon tak abes.so no choice lapar makan jek larh and appetite aku mati.i feel like i wanna runaway..but where am i going to head to?aunty?cousin?frens?i jus dun wan to beban them.i dun get it ape yang mama tak puas hati ngan aku.coz aku jarang pat rumah?helo sch starts at 8 and ends at 5 limit limit sampai rumah around 7 coz train will be fully packed peak hours lagik..den kat rumah dier tdo jek aku mengadap lappie dier bising and wat she wans me to do?housework?aku buat..although aku penat and jus now she say "teman talib tak penat!"wtf...aku tk mintak dier duit pon nak top up ezlink aku sey nak teman talib...ape dier nak!aku tk paham!can i jus get out of here.umur aku 18 bukan 8 years old nak diatur aku tahu lah ape salah ape betol.aku ikot sak curfew be home at 9.and bukan hari hari aku jumpe sayang aku.okey move on i feel its time i try to be independent but can i?should i run away?first time in my life i'm deciding on this.aku selalu cakap org yang lari rumah bodoh and now i'm the dumbfcuk nak lari rumah.dumbfcuk like me yang selalu kene marah.I WANNA RUNAWAY!!!WHERE SHOULD I HEAD TO?Dis make me feel tak nak study sey i have no semangat aku cakap balek skolah kul 5 they cakap aku merayap padahal aku skolah...urgh to u guys out there kalau parents korang understand korang treasure them alots kae..some of you may say parents aku rock but u dun actually noe how are they.yes they go clubbing and stuff melepak sume..sometimes i tink back why they can but not me?aku nak rase gi clubbin tapi ape?tak boleh although i'm 18 already.lagi aku pernah tanye nak pegi ngan dieorg lagi.i jus wanna see the world behind it.oryte i noe i have bloggin alotz abt dis but i can't help it i need to let it out..so sorie tat this post is damn long.
You are everything I ever wanted.
On you my future happiness depends.
Unless I'm with you all my thoughts are haunted.
After seeing you, my unease ends.
Reason warns me that I am in danger:
Eventually, everything must fade.
My love, like yours, is flammable in anger.
Yet my trust is such, I'm not afraid.
Something in our love's more than emotion,
Underneath each thought and each desire;
Not even all the water in the ocean
Seems up to putting out this one small fire.
How could this be? Within our love is something
Immeasurable, infinite, and good.
Nothing in all life can match this one thing
Each other passion would be, if it could
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